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[08 Sep 2006|04:38pm] Hey all!!!!! So obviously it's been a LOOOOOOOOONG time since I have updated... HOWEVER... I blog ALOT of myspace, so I suggest if you would like to know all about my boring life!!!! AND IF WE AREN'T FRIENDS...... ADD ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! www.myspace.com/alysa_joy LOVE YOU fluffy clouds.

[23 Jul 2006|08:33pm] You Know You're A Dancer When... ~ your pointe shoes are your babies. ~ your friends are covering up there zits while you try to hide your ugly feet. ~ you sit in a straddle when you are watching t.v. ~ you have blisters on your feet for life. ~ you use your swingset to practice your fouettes ~ dance is life and the rest is just spare time. ~ when you put on your pointe shoes to reach high places. ~ when you talk about a friend being you first partner people think you're being vulgar. ~ your vocabulary includes band-aids, sweat, tape, and determination! ~ you have become attached to your pointe shoes. ~ people mistake you for a rubber band. ~ your body cracks loud enough to stop class... but you didn't even hear it. ~ "practice makes perfect" isn't just a saying, it's a way of life. ~ you walk with your feet turned out. ~ everything you do has to do with dance. ~ your parents just bought stock in bandaids. ~ you hear classical music and you need to dance. ~ you don't dance for a week and even your brother notices. ~ you can't count past 8. ~ you notice every mistake in dance movies and/or TV shows. ~ all the things you get for Christmas or Birthdays are related to dance. ~ you stand on pointe in your shoes when talking to your friends. ~ dance is life, nothing else matters. ~ you have more pairs of dance shoes that street shoes. ~ you start stretching whenever sitting on the floor. ~ you turn conversation to dance without noticing. ~ the first impression other people have of you is YOU DANCE. ~ you point your toes even during sit ups. ~ you use empty hallways to practice grand jetes. ~ you do plies and tendus while waiting in line. ~ you can't remember the last time when you weren't sore from dancing. ~ you cancel dates because of dance classes. ~ you bend over to pick up someting and one leg automatically shoots up to a 180 degree angle with feet pointed. ~ you go to get a haircut and the first thing you tell them is to cut it long enough for a bun. fluffy clouds.

[23 Jul 2006|12:21pm] "You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese, the Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the U.S. of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, AND the three most powerful men in America are named Bush, Dick, and Colon!" fluffy clouds.

[12 Jul 2006|02:43pm] wefljkhqweiofhaslkdnasdjqwioeurwcfk asfdkqjoweirfnhsdznvfndwkhfrqeoicf acfjlasbnf qwpidf aqwieqopif casifhcq wrqwoer wsks fnduu sdnwsiw asiswhwiw anqoeryu wicfmzspwuejx ow dnhjwiwjmnsodhjw2id qoq!!!!!!!!!!!1 KQWDOQWIDEH ASKDN WDJIQWIOEJQWOIEKLASXDMIOWQP QKNJQIXNCEUBUGFR SCDOWOEIOQWEIWOEUIJ S!!!!!!!!1 SERIOUSLY WHAT A FUCKING CONIVING BITCH! (i dont know if thats how you spell it) WADFQWURHASKFQWIEFR I REALLY WANT TO SCREAM AT HER.... WATCH ME CHANGE THE LEAVING DATE. WHAT ME LAVE IN OCTOBER.... FUCK WHY DONT I LEAVE IN AUGUST. WATCH ME. I WILL CHANGE IT IF YOU DARE PUSH ME. IT WILL BE THE DAY AFTER I TURN 20. DEAD FUCKING SERIOUS. I WILL LEAVE EARLIER IF YOU PUSH ME. KEEP IT UP. SEE WHAT HAPPENS. AND!!!!!!!!! I WAS GOING TO BE NICE TO YOU AND DECIDE AGAINST THE MARINES. JUST BECASUE YOU HATE IT SO MUCH. KEEP PUSHING.... WATCH. Cause everytime you do this it makes me want to leave more and more. Everytime we get into an argument about this I become more and more ready. I don't hate you and I know you hate this. You hate that I want to do this so bad. And you want me to do the Army instead of the Marines. But I can't tell you what it is like to do this with you. I am tired of it. SO KEEP PUSHING. BE SECRETIVE. BE A BITCH. But I will tell you this. I CAN BE A BITCH TOO. AND EVERYONE KNOWS I AM FUCKING GOOD AT IT. I CAN BE A FUCKING BITCH. So push me. 2 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

shit [05 Jul 2006|09:33am] [ mood | fuck it all ] Rear ended someone today on my way to work. The man has a fucking show car. Nothing happened to my car...of course...i swear the thing is made of steel. Something happened to his car. I am so dumb. I really don't wnt to do this right now. I wanted to be selfish and spend my money on me...or save it for fallllll. Damn. Have to call mom later and tell her. Damn. All I have to say is thank god I won't have to deal with this shit next June. Honestly... I can't wait to leave. I tired of it all. Obviously Alysa is also on her period. Chris continues to call and text me... So I guess that's another person that confirms I'm good at sex. Good to know. Ha..... yea right. Anyway.... Today will get better.... of course it could get worse but let's think about good things. It was just a fender bender... Life's too short... To worry about shit like this... Have a good day! 5 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

A Good Night! [30 Jun 2006|10:15am] So I talked to Mike last night for an hour. I didn't go to sleep till 1:00 I didn't go to work early because I couldn't get up because I am dead. It was a really good talk though!!! He is coming home today and he said he was supposed to be spending time in Tampa and he said he would call me Satuday night if he was going to be here. So we'll see... I don't want to get my hopes up! And then I woke up and remembered my entire dream from last night. and guess who it was about...not Mike... Yes Matt. ( Dream ) Have a good day I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! 5 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

[28 Jun 2006|03:51pm] Why do I feel like I have grown up and everyone around me hasn't yet? Could be because my life is paralell to a single working womans. It's weird to feel so much older than people who may even be older than you. I don't know... Maybe it's just cause of work and everything with the military. Have a great day! fluffy clouds.

blessed.... [26 Jun 2006|09:06am] [ mood | pondering things ] Do you ever wonder why some things happen to some people and other things happen to other people? I know that there are some people who have more bad things happen to them than others. And anyone who chooses to disagree with me..."bring it"! Why do things happen this way? I would say for the most part I have been blessed and more good things have happened to me than bad things, so I'm not talking about me or complaining. I am not going to turn into one of those people who thinks the world hate me and always will. Because frankly, those people make me want to carve my eyeballs out with a spoon. I am not talking about those people, because they are the ones who don't realize the good things that have happened to them. I am talking about the people who honest to god lots of bad things happen to them. And most likely these are the people who act as though they are always having a great day. These are the people who have had the really bad things happen to them. I'm not talking about the high school shit that most people worry about. I'm not talking about the "my mom grounded me" shit, or the "my boyfriend broke up with me" or the "she didn't call me so shes not my friend and then she called this other girl first so now no one likes me O.M.G". I'm talking about the things that we take for granted, health, family, money (even if we don't have much, someone has less than us). Anyway I just wanted to say that my friends and I are blessed. And I think sometimes we might forget about this when "we hate men" or "we are pissed at parents" or "she's a bitch". I know I'm not perfect and I talk about how Matt hurt me a lot..... But I was just sitting at work thinking about things......... And I hope no one takes offense to this, I haven't meant it towards anyone... but really we are all blessed... So thank whomever you believe in or whatever you believe in because we live a good life. 4 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

goodbye forever [21 Jun 2006|11:42pm] he let me go i let him go or have either of us truly done that i guess we only know... by if we end up with "the one" and it is not each other... or if we end up together... anyway "goodbye forever" was said even though it will never hold true... goodnight 4 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

Last Night: Good and Bad..... Like Always [17 Jun 2006|07:03pm] So last night my family and I went out to dinner. It was nice at first and then it got really bad talking about the Military stuff. Mom's argument of choice tonight was that.... When you sign un you sign for 8 years no matter how long your active duty is for. Let's say I sign un for active duty of 3 years. After that if they need me for some reason they can still call me for up to 5 years after that. Totaling 8 years. And Mom freaked out and said what if I get married and want to have children when I get out. She said I would have to wait until the 5 years was up because I couldn't imigine having to leave my children. Being taken away form them. Oh well. I just listened and stared. There really isn't much else I can do. Anwyay after all of that nonsence I drove home and Matt came over when I got here. It was good. It was bad. Anways we dropped his car off, and we talked about everything in my car on the way to the house. Then we played with the computer for a while to try to get it to work (everything is ok now). Then we talked for a long time while we played with his phone. Then layed down and talked about the military stuff in between making out. Ok, this is where it gets interesting. He told me he really didn't want me to go. Which of course makes everything really hard. He told me he was scared that if I went I would be killed and he agreed with my Mom about the baby thing alot. And of course there was other things he said that I can't remember. All I know is he really doesn't want me to go. Then we were making out for a while and he stopped and did this thing so I asked him what "What?" and he said "Nothing". So I said something. I said "Your kiss feels like home." He goes "I was thinking the same thing." ::sigh:: Anyway, then came the amazing sex for a very long time. It was great!!!! AMAZING!!!!! After that we decided to sleep in my parents bed because the extra space would be nice. I had a bad stomach ache, the cats were crazy, and I was sleeping on the remote for the light and kept turning it on... so both of us didn't get much sleep. I woke him up around 9 by... well think of graphic things... and then its was a "Good Morning". He took a nap after that and then I took him to his car around 11:30. All in all it was it was good. Felt like "home" the whole time. Anyway..... Got a text this morning from Mom that says: "What ever your decision, we will always love you and wish you the love and happiness you deserve. Love You. xoxo" (made me cry) I'm not emotionally ok right now. It's because he doesn't want me to go. It's because of everything with my parents. It's because of everything with my friends. It's because I don't know what to do. 9 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

Stupid Girls [13 Jun 2006|11:03am] What has happened to many of the girls in the world who feel they need to dumb themselves down for boys? What are parents teaching their daughters? Why are they not asking for the best, smartest women to grow up and be leaders for world tomorrow? There is not one girl who can't acheive that. All parents should only ask of the best from their children. There is no reason they can't give that to their parents. Granted there are a few people who have learning disorders, but you know what.... You are just the people who have to try harder. I'm sorry, I know that sounds mean, but 99% of the world can at least accomplish common sence. And for those of you who do have learning disorders, most of the time you are better at something else. I am not saying that everyone needs to have an I.Q of 140 or better but I am saying that there is no reason why a girl shouldn't try her hardest. And I know damn well that I would rather be with people who are well rounded, so no I don't want to surround myself with people who are genius', I want to be around people who are average and are good at other things too, maybe the arts, or sports ....please just something! Why is the world more involved in what a woman looks like and the curves she has than her minds ability? Why don't most men get aggravated by these woman who constantly either pretend to be dumb or truly just are dumb? Why aren't these girls who truly are dumb going out and learning things for themselves? There is nothnig attractive about being ignorant. Honestly, these girls who are like this are boring. Don't men understand that? How can you even carry on a conversation with these girls? And if that's what you like about them, that they don't have a mind, that they don't talk, that they do as you ask, that they don't question some of the things you say.... then you should probably be exiled to a middle eastern country. The majority of people would rather not be around a person who lacks everyday knowledge. And this is to no one.... Just some things that I think about.... And here is a song that completely proves that I am not the only one that thinks like this. ( Stupid Girls ) fluffy clouds.

A Tuesday Morning at HDR [13 Jun 2006|07:59am] Well let's see, I guess the last update would be that I was preparing to tell my parents that I was going to enlist after this year. Well I went home on Saturday after we had some drinks on Friday night. (It was fun) So Saturday I came home and broke the news that aparently my mom already had an idea about. It was pretty bad for a while. But then it got better. Dad went to work after (that's how Tanya and I knew it was pretty bad) and Mom was very quite. Then Mom and Dad went out on Saturday night and I took AMAZING pictures of the sunset!!! Go look at my myspace (www.myspace.com/alysa_joy) And then I saw Prince Charming later! It was really funny and nerve racking. We were both kinda busy so we met at the bank near my house (didn't want him to come over just in case Mom and Dad came home) And then I was really nervous and locked the keys in my car so Tanya had to come and unlock them. Needless to say it was a funny situation! Then he called later and said things that made my heart melt! Damn Man! Why does the word "beautiful" do it to girls!?!? Anyway Sunday was quite, Tanya was at work and Mom and I looked at some of the Army and Navy things online. She said absolutly NO to Marines. Damnit..... Maybe we can change her mind! Anyway, I came home (Tampa) and Tara, Angela, Ryan and I went out to dinner and then to Cold Stone! It was very fun and a great last night with Angela and Ryan. I guess that's just about all right now. Tanya and I bought Dad (an Mom) a camcorder for Father's day. I got it last night and I want to play with and charge it for them but Tara said I shouldn't just in case they want to return it. :( Oh well. I hate school. Obviously otherwise I wouldn't be enlisting after this year. ;) And work is ok. Actually I'm here right now and I'm bored, but what else is new. I'm always bored unless I'm dancing or doing something else active. Well shit... I guess we will just see how things turn out! Haven't talked to Matt for a long time and I have tried calling cause I want to tell him about next year. But What the Fuck Ever!!!! I just hope that he is still alive and not in jail cause his parents are out of town and you know, he just doesn't do the smartest of things. Fuck that. He's a pot head and drinks all the time. lol... oh well... people will do what they want of course. I know damn well that I will always do what I want to do, which is why my parents are going to have to slowly get used to the idea that their baby girl is going to go play "Soldier Girl"! That's fucking right! Soldier Girl....doesn't it just roll of your tongue? lol.... jk.... But I know that this is best for me. Alright, for real I'm done! Love you all and Have a good day and Be safe in Alberto!!!! 6 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

I will do this. [04 Jun 2006|06:07pm] Have you ever dreamed of doing something all you life and just kept putting it off? Like when you were little you used to watch this thing on T.V and swear that that's what you were going to become. And it wasn't necessarily that you were putting it off, it was more that it was hiding and then something brings it out. This thing is something that I have wanted to do since I was little. And I don't think anyone knows what it is. If one person knows it's Tanya, and I don't even think she knows. So this thing is something I have been thinking about for a while now. I want to do it more than anything, but I am going to have a very hard time convicing my parents to let me. But I want this. I want this more than anything... And it's not as though they can stop me but I am petrified to tell them what I want to do. I am the first baby girl. It is going to be so difficult for them to let me do this. And when I present them with this I am going to have to have some damn good arguments. But this is what I want and I'm not changing my mind. I will do this, even though it means leaving everything. Love you all!!! XOXOXOXOXO 6 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

[02 Jun 2006|10:23pm] AWWWWWW.... FUCK!!!! He called. Guess I haven't given up on dem fucking Y's. Yea now I'm off to bed. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW .that damn prince charming. 2 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

[02 Jun 2006|09:45pm] I have come to the decision that I give up on the Y Chromosome for the next few years. Well at least a year. Anyway I need to focus on school and work. I also need to make the biggest decision of my life this year. I will not say what it is and if I told you, please don't tell, because I'm not ready to defend myself. I have to work on all of my arguments. ((((and you know I will come up with some damn good ones...cause that's what I do best!!!!)))) Anyway... I got paid today! It was great! I love getting paid again!!!! And then I went shopping... HA HA HA!!! Great! Oh well I don't feel bad about it! The greatest friends will be here tomorrow. I am so excited!!!! Alright well I'm exhausted from work..Off to bed! Love you all!!!! 2 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

Memorial Day! [29 May 2006|03:38pm] Went to the beach today with chelsea and it was alot of fun and I got some sun and then some people met us there it was really good! And then it started raining so we left and I stopped at the Ice Cream place on the way home and saw Kaitlin. It was fun! Last night I went to Keivn's party thing and it was alot of fun even though I am the cheapest date evel and I am an old lady. I just am done after an hour of that stuff. ANYWAY.... Here is the good stuff!!! On the way home I called Matt cause I was bored. And we talked for 4 hours. I didn't go to sleep till 4:30. Yea. It was really good and we talked abotu the normal stuff. But We also talked about feelings and everything else like that. And that conversation was about 2 hours. It was good. Really good. Love you all. Happy Memorial Day! 2 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

[28 May 2006|03:04am] HA HA HA This actually isn't that far from the truth I don't think!!! The evil part made me laugh so hard!!! i miss el and jord!!!!! Matt woke me up and then Mike called and sang to me. I love when he sings to me!!! Especially when he sings Run by George Straight!!! Thats the second time now!!! I HEART HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I'm very awake. Matt asked that for that thing... I guess I still got it. lol... jk!!! But that was after we talked for a good half an hour or whatever. I don't know... I'm so weird in the way I think. I'm just going to say this... is it awful to be slighty flattered when he asks?? I'm not asking any of you because I don't care what you think. Not in a bad way. I just tend to not care what people think about me! And that's why I am the way I am! :) But yes... I don't know... Anyway I told him no. besides I shall not spend my weekend doing that when I could be at the beach or something. Not that the beach is better but... yea.... And this is awful too but I'm saying. I think when I get to say no to him and he asks like a few weeks later again... It might be a power thing for me. Like he broke my heart and shit but now I can say yes or no to sex. It's like I get something to control now. Something is mine. Yes he hurt me but watch me have the power to have sex with him or not. Hope that makes sence. You Are Bert Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others The Sesame Street Personality Quiz 8 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

I LOVE MINTS [24 May 2006|08:39am] I'm sitting at work. It's turns out this job is kinda of alot like me working at the library except better because this time I have a computer! You know... I don't really mind being the bitch at work. I just do what people tell me to and so far no one has ever asked me to do something insane. So it doesn't bother me, but I think this only pertains to work because we all know that sometrying to tell Alysa to do something is like trying to make the sun rise in the west.... lol.... I'm a nerd! Well I don't mind working here nearly as mnuch because my supervisor well the lady that I see everything about is one of the most laid back people I have ever met. Whatever I want to do is fine with her. See this is only for the time being because I have a feeing that ina few weeks things will get much busier because I am ina group that is working on a project called the C-44 Resevoir Project.... anyway... I will be busy soon enough! Enough about work!!!!..... Well school has been ok. Math class so far hasn't been hard which I wish was different because I wouldn't be so bored in class and I wouldn't leave early if it was hard. It's becoming a problem. I get quarter way through the class and I start my day dreaming. They are wonderful interesting dreams however then I get pissed that I'm in a classdoing nothing agian... feels like Cypress classes all over again...so then I leave after the class is half over. This will be a problem soon. I feel it. And the Chem lab is good. I like the labs and I work with 2 guys in the class and we divide the lab up and then give each other the answers we got so we get done after an hour! It's great cause I get home by 7:30-7:45 instead of 9:00!!!! Hmmmm... everything else in my life... Well I am getting my hair cut either today or tomorrow! I am so excited! And I am doing something today that is RIDICUlOUS but I'm doing it anyway. And I am so FUCKING EXCITED!!!! Tara and I are very good at coming up with really good reasons to get the things we want. It is a very bad thing! So...heres something... Tara got a kitten!!!! Yes...see this is why Tara and I are going toget in lots of trouble this year! We found very good reasons why she should get the cat!!! It's 5 weeks old! So it can't come home yet. But in a week and a half it will be here! Tara and I also realized this morning that we are not kids any more we aren't even teenagers we are adults (minus some of the money things that will soon be over). We go to bed by 11:00, we get up earlier than 6:00, we do everything for ourselves. I dress like a damn 24 year old (for work). Oh dear... the silly lives of Tara and Alysa...but shit it is so fun to live together as long as we stay out of trouble... I am coming home this weekend and I am so excited! It should be a fun and interesting weekend... full of new things...lol... Can't wait for Friday! Did I mention I LOVE MINTS!!! I just put one in my mouth! P.S...Life is great right now! 1 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

[17 May 2006|12:33pm] Congtradulations to Cypress Seniors... well in a few hours! fluffy clouds.

[14 May 2006|10:28pm] Last night I went to bed at 10:30. Couldn't sleep for hours so I was on the computer with my sister and she found out that I was surpising Mama for mothers day and then we decided that I should just leave then at 2:00 AM and come home... So I started getting ready and at 2:30ish.... Prince Charming called!!!! So we talked the entire time I was getting ready and the whole drive home!! 2 and a half hours with my McLovely. And then my phone died and he left me a great message and then he said that he would call me today. It's bad...I have quite a big crush on Prince Charming. I hope he comes home on Friday!!! We talked about that... dear dear dear....... sigh... I heart Prince Charming!!!! And so i spent the day for the most part at Megans and it was wonderful! The three of us had lots of fun! And we had great Brunch stuff!!! And then I took a nap for an hour! And then Mom and I ordered Chinese cause Tanya had to work! We ate on the porch and it was so peaceful... I really miss Cape Coral. I'm So Serious. And then I drove home and now I'm watching Greys Anatomy and it's a scary and frusterating one!!!! I Love Mom! Happy Mothers day!!!!!! And prince charming....sigh 5 Clouds in the sky.| fluffy clouds.

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